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Saturday, November 27, 2010

Delta's History - Part 3 Finally Catching Up to the Present

Delta and Echo at Echo's
1st Birthday 3/14/2010

In January of this year it was decided that Delta should have a swallow study.  Perhaps that would explain why she wouldn't eat.  The swallow study was done by two lovely occupational therapists and one agile radiologist.  Delta had a hard time sitting still in the seat but was eager to comply with the therapists asking her to swallow different textures from a thin liquid to a solid.  I was amazed at how well the radiologist moved around with his x-ray machine to get the pictures.  It was determined that Delta had no functional problems swallowing but that it was quite obvious that she didn't like certain textures and she was highly distractable and that could make feeding a challenge.  The Occupational Therapists recommended feeding therapy that started in early March at witch she got the diagnosis of Sensory Processing Disorder, basically the nerve impulses that she receives in her senses have trouble processing and in some cases she's over sensitive and perceives what one might feel is pleasant as painful or irritating.

Shortly after having the ng tube placed.
The arm splints are to keep her from removing it.
On March 21, we dedicated Echo to the Lord in our church.  We had put this off for a full year as we were struggling with our Faith.  How could we dedicate a baby to God, when our prayers for our toddler seemed to fall of deaf ears?  We finally realized that although we are Delta's parents, we are not in control.  We cannot stop her from having pain or suffering in life and hard as it is to admit, God might not have plans to heal her.  This didn't mean we were giving up, only that we were taking the role of co-pilot instead of pilot. 

At home with her ng tube and her
feeding pump in the background.

On March 22, Delta was admitted to the hospital for failure to thrive.  We had held off as long as we could but it was apparent that she could not or would not eat enough on her own.  She received an ng tube that afternoon and was not at all pleased.  We were in the hospital for three days and then returned home.  The ng tube allowed her to grow but did not make her happy.  Delta had always vomited or refluxed but now it was a daily if not hourly occurrence.  We had medical paraphernalia all over our house and simple things like joining Bravo's class for a walk at the seashore became a complicated exercise in timing, positioning and carrying enough stuff.  Delta had a hard time tolerating her formula at very high flow rates which meant she spent 13 hours a day hooked up to her feeding pump.  She also completely quit eating the day she got her ng tube.  For the first several weeks with the tube, I doubt she ate more than 3 small bites of food per day.

Shortly after g-tube surgery
Delta continued with her feeding therapy but made very little progress after the ng tube was placed.  She started accepting foods she normally would have thrown on the floor on her plate but very little went into her mouth.  In April we had an evaluation at a local feeding clinic.  They confirmed our decision to pull Delta's ng tube and get her a g-tube directly into her stomach and suggested that we also see an ENT and get a sleep study to rule out any of those issues.  Also since our current OT was leaving her position in June we decided we would start feeding therapy at the clinic in June.  In May Delta got her g-tube a direct port through her abdominal wall into her stomach.  After an initial scare, the doctor's accidentally put two holes in her stomach so she had to be nothing by mouth or g-tube for 72 hours, she healed well.  When they placed the g-tube they did another biopsy of her small intestine.  In this biopsy they found  a high amount of a type of peptide that is only seen in celiacs getting gluten or the severely malnourished.  Since she had been getting her full nutrition from her tube for the last two months and all her vitamin levels were normal we new that malnourishment couldn't be the cause so her celiac disease was  confirmed.  We finally started treating her reflux after 2 1/2 years and she started on prevacid and Reglan.  The prevacid was to help keep her stomach acid down and the Reglan was to help he not vomit and empty her stomach faster.  I'm not sure exactly which it was but it worked.  Delta hardly vomits now.  After two months Delta was on vacation and her meds were forgotten for a few days and it was realized that she somehow didn't need them so now she has quit vomiting and is medication free.  Since the g-tube placement her growth has been mostly steady.  She goes to weekly feeding therapy with another little girl with celiac and since her 3rd birthday she has shown more interest in eating so we pulled back a little more on the tube feeding and currently her growth has stalled.  So we are taking a short while to try and get her eating more and if that doesn't work we will have to increase the tube feeds again.  It is a delicate balance to try to find the right place between giving little enough tube feeds to invite a little hunger and getting enough that she is properly nourished and can grow.  Delta still hasn't seen an ENT but hopefully that will happen in the new year.  She saw a pulmonologist and had a sleep study a few weeks ago and it was found that she does have sleep apnea.  We go back to the pulmonologist in December to find the full results of the study.  Delta is being tested for cystic fibrosis for the 4th time as an explanation for her poor growth, all her other tests have been insufficient quantities of sweat for an answer.

Blowing out the candles for her 3rd birthday.

Catching butterflies in the yard.

Hiking at the State Park

Delta keep us hopping for sure, but we wouldn't have it any other way.  How does it affect the other kids you may ask.  Well, for Alpha it simply brings out his amazing compassion and sensitive heart.  Bravo gets a little jealous but is understanding most of the time.  She had a particularly hard time when we had to miss her 1st grade play right after Delta's g-tube surgery.  Thankfully a great friend videotaped it for us.  Charlie struggles, he even asked for a button (what we call Delta's tube) like Delta's and Echo, she has never known any other life.  She looks for her button and tubie at times and wonders why she can't find it but to hep feeding tube, syringes and pumps are just normal life.  I guess now they are to all of us.

Sleep Study

Dancing with my nephew at my sister's wedding.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Delta's History - Part 2

Reading all her books before taking them to the library.
I left you last right before Delta's first birthday.  We celebrated Delta's first birthday with friends and family at my parents home.  We had a great time although Delta often seemed overwhelmed by all the attention.  She made a mess with her cake but didn't eat much and enjoyed opening presents.  We had asked that everyone give Delta books to donate to the library rather than gifts as we had an abundance of toys and clothes already and Delta loved and still does love the library.

Shortly after her first birthday we changed pediatricians, not because we didn't like the one we had, but because we wanted one closer to home and because I really didn't like the office staff at our current pediatrician's office.  Within the month we had well baby/well child visits for all four kids.  The new pediatrician wanted to rule out causes for Deltas tininess as she was only 15 pounds.  We ran blood tests and found out she was quite anemic and tested positive for celiac disease, an autoimmune disease that causes damage to the small intestine and malnourishment with all its complications when gluten is ingested.  Alpha failed a vision test, Bravo failed a hearing test and were referred to the opthamologist and audiologist respectively and Charlie we discovered still had an undescended teste and had to see a urologist.  Delta was referred to the gastroenterologist to look into the celiac.  We saw the GI doctor in early October and she told us we needed to do a small intestine biopsy to confirm Delta's celiac disease and it couldn't be done until December.  In the meantime we were to give her lots and lots of gluten to ensure that the test had good results as if there was not enough gluten in her system, the results would be negative whether she had celiac or not.  So we began to give Delta crackers, bread, pancakes, cookies.  Every time she turned around we were offering her more.  In the meantime she became a very cranky, lethargic and antisocial baby.  She started screaming when strangers talked to her at the store.  She was rarely happy and hard to console.  She often laid on our living room floor for hours and just cried, any attempt on my part to console her just made the crying worse.  She started waking every hour or two at night and was simply put miserable.  In mid December the day of her biopsy finally came and we got up extra early to be in San Francisco at 7 a.m.  Delta had a really hard time coming out of the anesthesia but otherwise all went well.  James and I decided to start Delta on a gluten free diet that day, as we didn't have anything to lose by trying it.  Within days Delta's screaming stopped and we saw her smile again.  She was still lethargic however.  When we went back to the GI doctor she said her biopsy was inconclusive.  They couldn't confirm the celiac but they couldn't say she definitely didn't have it.  They recommended we test her again later.  We felt differently.  Untreated celiac disease leads to severe problems, when you have celiac and consume gluten your body cannot absorb the vitamins, minerals and calorie content of the food you eat so you literally begin to starve.  If we waited a year and tested again unrepairable damage could have been done in that time.  If we kept Delta gluten free there would be no way to test later.  We had already seen improvements in Delta's behavior and we were willing to continue with the gluten free diet.  We had absolutely nothing to lose.  Interestingly her iron levels had gotten much worse despite supplementation.  When we went back in January Delta had gained a pound in a month, something that she had never done before in her life and her iron levels were holding steady although still quite low.  I also did a lot of research on celiac and found that biopsies were very unreliable in young children and that almost all kids with positive blood tests will eventually have a positive biopsy if not on a gluten free diet.  One doctor from New Zealand even went so far to say it was child abuse to keep a child with a positive blood test on a gluten containing diet until they had biopsy proven intestinal damage.  This confirmed our conviction to keep Delta gluten free.

Enjoying some family time at Disneyland in April of 2009.
Thank you Disney for your Armed Forces Salute
that made this possible for us.
We chugged along through 2009 with many small but significant events.  Delta's energy and iron levels improved throughout the year.  In February Charlie had surgery to lower his undescended teste.  Alpha and Bravo had seen their vision and hearing specialists, Alpha needed reading glasses and Bravo just needed her ears cleaned out.  In March Echo was born and that same week Delta started speech therapy.  Her first day Echo was less than one week old.  Delta continued to have ups and downs in her growth and her gastrointerologist started her on Pediasure.  In June they switched her to Boost 1.5 for even more calories and too our shock we got a visit from Child Protective Services.  They were there because they were concerned about Delta's weight.  They opened a voluntary (meaning we agreed to it, but I'm not sure what not agreeing would have led to) six month investigation.  The first weeks of this were awful for me.  I really struggled with the thought that someone, somewhere thought I wasn't doing my job as a parent.  In August Delta's GI said if she didn't gain a pound in the next month she would be admitted to the hospital for Failure to Thrive and would most likely be getting a feeding tube.  We started her on periactin an antihistamine, that has a side effect of increasing the appetite.  The first week on periactin was horrible, it also made Delta tired and grouchy and once again she was having screaming fits.  One lasted three hours until she literally passed out on the kitchen floor from exhaustion.  Thankfully these undesired effects only lasted for 4-5 days.  Unfortunately periactin has to be cycled on and off to continue working so we went through this every 4 weeks.

Delta's 2nd birthday was bittersweet as we were all quite certain at her next GI appointment, two weeks later, she would be admitted to the hospital.  She did however graduate from speech therapy the month before.  We celebrated at the park with a Mickey Mouse theme, Delta's favorite.  When we went back to the GI, we were shocked to learn that Delta had not gained one pound but nearly two is just six short weeks.  We sang, we danced, we praised God for a happy and getting healthy little girl, she was thriving and just barely on the growth charts.  In December CPS finally closed their case and decided we were indeed doing all we could for Delta.  Sadly in January the periactin quit working and Delta's weight gain came to a screeching halt. 

I will continue with this year's journey in a post very soon.


Sunday, October 31, 2010

Delta's History Part 1

Just a few days old.
Delta was born in September of 2007 a full term healthy baby girl.  She weighed in at 6 pound 14 ounces and was 19 inches long.  She seemed perfect in every way.  She had two beautiful dimples, something the doctor noticed in the delivery room and dark, thick eyelashes.  She was truly a beautiful newborn.  She was also a very easy going newborn, which is a requirement when you are the fourth child. 

My nephew, 2 months and Delta 4 months.
My nephew was off the top of the growth charts.

As an infant Delta's development was completely normal.  She smiled in her first few weeks, laughed around 10 weeks and cooed right on time.  She quickly learned to roll over and the delighted in getting everyone's attention.  She was definitely on the small side but always continued growing right along the 25th percentile of the growth charts.  At 3 months and again at 5 months she had RSV, a respiratory virus that is mild in most but particularly rough in infants.  Both times she was quite ill and required antibiotics and inhaled and injected steroids to recover.  This was when we first noticed she was funny about things in her mouth.  Every time we tried to give her medicine by dropper she would vomit as soon as the dropper went in her mouth.  The medical assistants at the pediatrician's office didn't believe me, they insisted that I was giving it to her wrong.  I then brought her into the office and offered her to them to give her medicine.  It was quickly realized that Delta wasn't going to get any medicine by mouth and the doctor ordered injections for her medications.  Delta recovered both times and thankfully has never had the infection again since. 
At about 8 months. 
At Delta's six month check up it was noticed that she had "fallen off" the growth charts for weight but she had been sick so no one thought much of it.  We were just told to bring her back next month to weigh her again.  At six months we also started introducing baby foods and cereals.  Delta was very excited to eat but didn't seem to know what to do with it.  We'd spoon the food into her happy smiling mouth and she would just sit there while most of it ran down her face.  It takes babies awhile to learn to eat so we never though much of it.  We also tried to introduce a cup at this time as she had never taken a bottle and I wanted an occasional break from her.  With her being so little and not really eating much of the solid foods I felt as if I couldn't leave her for more than an hour or so.  She was highly unimpressed with a cup so we quickly gave that up.  At seven months and again at eight and nine months Delta was still underweight but she was following the curve of the growth chart, just below it so everyone was content.  Around eight or nine months we decided to give Delta table food as the pureed food wasn't happening.  She loved it!  We were so excited to see her eat something besides breastmilk and whatever she accidentally swallowed of the purees.  Delta continued to love the table foods and grow on her curve below the growth charts for the rest of her first year.

To be continued.... Soon I hope.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Flying to the Open House

It's been a busy week.  I started Flying with help from the Flylady.  What's Flying?  It is finally loving yourself.  And it starts with a shiny kitchen sink.  Thanks to Flylady's excellent advice.  I now have one.
Not only that, there is a plan starting to develop to bring order to the chaos that five young children and two procrastination prone parents can bring to a home.
   This is a really beneficial since we are having an open house at our new place in less than two weeks.  I purposely scheduled the open house with the sole purpose of making myself unpack and put everything away in a timely manner.  It was truly shocking to realize how many things were never gone through in the four years that we lived in our last place.  We are really loving our new home.  There is room for all of us to spread out.  Both Alpha and Bravo were able to do their homework this afternoon while Charlie played with sea bones, Delta watched Little Einsteins and Echo followed me around whining because she didn't get a nap.  Amazingly no one really bothered each other or was distracted by each other with the exception of me and Echo.  I tolerated the whining though because I felt a little guilt about her not getting her nap.  I had the best intentions for her to nap and I even laid her down for one.  But she cried and cried and cried.  Normally she only cries for 5 minutes, then she might not fall asleep right away but she'll switch to talking and singing.  She was really crabby this morning and she needed this nap.  I NEEDED this nap so I let her cry thinking surely she'll fall asleep soon, I also didn't want to undo the sleep training we had done as Echo is my best sleeper.  After an hour of crying I couldn't stand it and went into her and found her with her leg stuck through the crib slats.  Then I had a good dose of mommy guilt.  I think she forgave me.  I hope she did.  I let daddy do bedtime.  Tomorrow she'll wear a sleepsack at nap time and everyone will be much happier.
First Family photo at the new digs.  Charlie, James, Alpha, Bravo, Echo, me and Delta

Oh and if you'd like to come to the open house it is Sunday October 10 from 2-5.  Send me and email an I will give you our address.

Monday, September 20, 2010


I am Heidi, a wife, a mother and a part time library assistant.  I am married to James.  He is a wonderful supportive and loving husband and devoted father, who like me is human.  He's not perfect but I wouldn't have him any other way.  I am mother to five lovely children who can delight me beyond belief, bring me to tears and make me want to pull my hair out all within 60 seconds.  For Internet safety I've decided to rename my kids.  Since my father is a pilot and my husband a Coastie it seems appropriate to rename them using the International Civil Aviation Organization Alphabet.  My oldest, a nine year old son whom I'll call Alpha, is becoming an amazing young man.  He is soft and sensitive but also can tell stories of epic battles with a grin on his face.  He has amazing patience with his younger siblings and delights in the sight of a newborn baby.  He also LOVES Star Wars and Legos.  He enjoys reading and dabbling in science and computers.  He can be rather noisy, but it is simply a symptom of his enthusiasm.  However that enthusiasm is not so contagious at his waking time of 6:30 even on weekends.  My second child is a seven year old daughter whom for blog purposes shall be Bravo.  Right now I believe she aspires to be a mommy and an art teacher.  She tries to practice her mommy skills on the youngest two members of our family.  They aren't so thrilled about the idea but it doesn't deter Bravo.  She absolutely adores art in any media and has already far surpassed my limited artistic skills.  I just wish sometimes her art stayed on the paper, clay or whatever media she is using rather than all over her.  Bravo also loves to read and I often discover her finishing her book well past bedtime by the glow of her nightlight.  My third child is four and a half.  The half is quite important.  He is Charlie.  He is the biggest (for his age) of all my children.  The rest were all 6 pounders but he came out right at 9 pounds.  As he was the only one born in the South, I blame it on the sweet tea, but the sweet tea sure sweetened his personality.  Anyone who knows him knows that Charlie just loves life.  He delights in everything.  We joke that we could give him five packages of underwear for Christmas and he would squeal with delight as he opened each one and proclaim each his favorite.  When he is happy or excited he is so overtaken by it he trembles and I just love that.  His physical demonstration of joy is almost Charlie Chaplin-esque so the Charlie nickname is all the more fitting.  His abundant joy is also complemented by great concern and compassion and deep curiosity about the hows and whys of everything.  He loves to build things and if his plans become reality he will be quite the inventor as he grows up and a very accomplished cook too.  My fourth child just turned 3 and shall be called Delta.  A delta is an ever changing environment and Delta's short life has been rife with changes.  She has suffered from a myriad stomach and bowel troubles and poor weight gain since 6 months old.  Through her I have known my deepest sorrows and my biggest joys.  She has celiac disease, GERD and Sensory Processing Disorder.  These along with possible other issues caused Failure to Thrive, which simply means she didn't grow.  This led to so many other troubles and ultimately a feeding tube.  Only recently with the feeding tube in place has her growth been normal.  It is painful to watch your child suffer but it makes the everyday joys of simple moments like a bedtime story or a walk to the park all the more beautiful.  I will delve more into life with Delta later.  My fifth and youngest child is 18 months and shall be called Echo which is very fitting at her age.  She is a lively little sprite with a little streak of mischief.  You never know if that little grinning face coming at you is going to give you a kiss or a headbutt, but either one delights her.  She's recently started singing and we all love her renditions of "Rock A Bye Baby" and "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" often heard late into the night from her crib.  Her newest accomplishment is realizing she can turn on the bathtub in mom and dad's bathroom.
As for me when I'm not busy with my kids, I love to read, I'm learning to knit, I enjoy cooking but not cleaning up afterwards and I love the outdoors:  hiking, camping, kayaking and more.  Our family is different in many ways and has ventured onto many new paths lately mostly ones we would have never chosen.  Nearly two years ago we started eating gluten free.  Six month ago we started learning to use a feeding tube and three months ago we started an adventure in committing to become debt free.  I hope to chronicle our journey on these paths and many new ones in our future.